Long ago I tried so hard to lose you
And to be with you
All at the same time
Touching you and still staying afar
And lately you have tried so hard
To soothe and to caress me
Oh while all I dreamed
Of was to hide away
Yet to be found
And someday I will trail my spirit's voice
And hold on to what it says
And maybe I will be astounded
By the beauty of my world
And nowadays I only seem to find my peace
In piles of shards of failed attempts to love
And failed attempts to take my life