i heard you say a lot of people tend to let you down i thought what a shame you haven't learned by now that ice takes so long to form and only seconds to break even under careful steps and cautious, well-intentioned weight in the car back to chicago, i wanted to know you you wanted to know me closer than i knew when i slept beside you, i turned my face away we both knew it felt wrong, we did it anyway i don't know if i know what it means to love someone so much that you'd do anything not just to keep them from leaving, but just to make them happy with nothing in return yeah, i am just too selfish for this selfless kind of work and when i heard you say a lot of people let you down well i thought i feel the same way but i am wondering now if that's just a reflection of the letting down i've done and with steps i thought were cautious, i broke through the ice, i've sunk in the car back to chicago i wanted to know you more than anything i wanted you to know me and we both wound up broken as typically we do and i'm sorry if you loved me and i never loved you