It hurts so much to shed this skin
that I have grown so comfortable in
I try and find the source within
but I can’t tell what’s truth or sin
I see the pain, that’s nothing new
in the rain I’m looking for you
the water draining from god’s eyes
seems to be drowning me in these lies
face nothing just me
I stop running away from me
it hurts so much to do it again
growing pains growing thin
looking beyond this wall of sin
to see exactly where I’ve been
the noise of my silence drowns out the screams
and these voices in my dreams
nothing’s the matter why can’t you see
that I am empty and finally free
face nothing just me
I stop running away from me
it hurts so much to feel pain win
growth in hell growth in sin
my shell’s not thick it’s only skin
all the knives inside have pierced within
show me heart? show me soul?
show me life? I do not know
where I lost it. Where’d it go?
show me life, I do not know
can’t you see that I cannot
in emotional cobwebs I seem to be caught
can’t you feel that I cannot
to break free is all I have sought
and it hurts so much
the tears still fall
I feel so numb
nothing at all
and it hurts so much
there’s nowhere to turn
it’s all within
this hell I burn
and it hurts so much
it all goes dark
I cannot see
why I’m so distraught
and it hurts so much
it does not leave
it’s never voiced
it’s quiet in me