I remember it
like it just happened
I could of sworn
it was a dream
But in reality it hit me
like a nightmare
Or at least
that’s how it seemed
I just got a grip
on our relationship
We was ironing things out
Started picking up steam
And when we didn’t need it
when it all got heated
And we both said some things
that we probably didn’t mean
God intervened
Guess war was at stake
Thought we left nothing over
He put more on the plate
She came home from the doctor
with news I been wantin’
Said family was incoming
She pregnant twins coming
But that’s gotta be a lie
She sighed
couldn’t stop the tears
coming from her eyes
That birth control she on
for them it’s suicide
But as long as it’s still inside
2 of them one survived
Hard turn
from memorable to cynical
Picturing clothes for
what would’ve been identical
Similar outfits similar names
My deceased kid’s ultrasound
in a frame
So I’m deprived of my chance
to be a better dad
Staring at my twins that
I never had
I shed a tear
Looking up in the sky
Even though y’all just got here
goodbye
Goodbye goodbye
So long farewell
But it’s not the
end of the chapter
Goodbye goodbye
So long farewell
I’ll see you again
in the afterlife
My biological sperm donor
Didn’t wanna be a daddy
So he hopped in his Caddy
and turned corners on us
Turned on us out the clear blue
His last memory of his son
is seeing me out his rearview
I still love him yo
But I love his brother mo’
My uncle showed me love
No one could know
Young and po’ with a tougher road
To suffer hunger was nothing
but Unc’ would hold us down
help mom lift the motherload
I got chronin'
I used to wonder
what it would be like
To speak to pops
as a grown man
He provided that feeling
Told me to take my career
into my own hands
He was there
when I had no fans
My cellphone rings
And after I answer
A voice says
Your uncle’s been diagnosed
with cancer
Worst news in my life
Him and chemo going 12 rounds
with a disease
And they both losing the fight
I’m rushing up to
see the cyanide
Praying for a miracle
I don’t wanna see my idol die
Before he did
The look in his eyes said
Even though you just got here
goodbye
Goodbye goodbye
So long farewell
But it’s not the
end of the chapter
Goodbye goodbye
So long farewell
I’ll see you again
in the afterlife
I’ll see you again
in the afterlife
Someday in heaven
we will reunite
The flesh disappears
but the soul survives
Till next time my friend
farewell goodbye
I walked in your daughter’s house
knowing that you gone
But still looking out
the corner of my eye
hoping you on the couch
That call felt like I was beef
that got shot up
Ironic I was on tour with
Tech N9ne and Slaughterhouse
E tried to talk to me
Crystal rubbed my back
as they were pourin’ out
I caught the next thing soarin’ out
Now I’m in the air
in the midwest somewhere
They said turbulence was severe
I don’t know
what they talkin’ bout
I ain’t feel a bump
body numb mind drifting
I’m sniffling
asthma acting up
I’m whistling
My mothers face looked
so much different
I’m kissing my son
my aunt pacing in the kitchen
My vision blurry
still I saw your face clear
What a loss this time
I did more than waste beer
Michelle’s strong
she held on
we got all the way there
Then we walked in
she fell on the floor
this ain’t fair
You was the voice
when I considered them thoughts
that ain’t clear
Hey granny
I was fifth row at the Grammy’s
An award they ain’t hand me
But I sat behind Will
And right in front of Wayne
And got seen by the family
I miss the early morning convos
believe me
Regis on the TV
and the best baked ziti
But you had an old white affair
grandpa’s all fly
Even though you been got there
goodbye
Goodbye goodbye
So long farewell
But it’s not the
end of the chapter
Goodbye goodbye
So long farewell
I’ll see you again
in the afterlife