It's ok in the day, I'm staying busy
tied up enough so I don't have to wonder 'Where is he?'
Got so sick of crying, so just lately when I catch myself I do a one-eighty
I stay up, clean the house, at least I'm not drinking
Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking
That silent sense of content that everyone gets
Just disappears as soon as the sun sets
He's fierce in my dreams, sees in my guts, he fills me with dread, so consumed, he swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him, room spinning
And I wake up alone
If I was my heart, I'd rather be restless
Sick and I stop, the sleep catches up and I'm breathless
There's this ache in my chest as my day is done now
The dark covers me and I cannot run now
My blood running cold, I stand before him
It's all I can do to assure him
When he comes to me, I drink for him tonight
Drowning me we bathe under blue light
He's fierce in my dreams, sees in my guts, he fills me with dread, so consumed, he swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him, room spinning
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone